Another Grand Adventure

Another Grand Adventure

     Every time we moved when the girls were little, I always told them that we were off on a new adventure. It was easy to fit into a new community when you have children in school. That automatically plugs you into the schools, church, library, etc.  Moving by oneself is a much more difficult task. I have the DAR, PEO, and church community but I am no longer plugged into anything. I don't have to be brave for someone else and it has always been difficult for me to be brave on my own. 

     

     I spent some time checking out apartments in North Carolina and discovered a few communities that I think would suit me. Floor plan is important (I want my furniture to fit!), I truly would like a pool if I am going to be in a complex (although fire pits are the best!), and an exercise room with a treadmill would be something I can see myself doing. And, yes, I am greatly affected by people in the front office/clubhouse. (I ruled out three places by deficiencies in these areas immediately). Of course, my favorites actually take me farther away from the parish that I would like to join so I will have to weigh whether or not that's important. I could just go to the same parish as my family (despite how off-putting I find it to be). It's still nice to be with family, right?

     Thinking ahead to second jobs, checking out online tutoring companies. With a move up-and-coming, that is definitely something that won't be effected by change in location. Working in retail sales for a chain is also a consideration - again, it's possible to retain a position while changing states. Maybe a bit of both? Re-packing some things this week and making use of having my car until it has to be turned in next weekend. Taking care of business and looking forward to the arrival of our new little one next month! 

     I'll try to be brave for my grandbabies. After all, it is another grand adventure! 

One More Time

I'm watching a mini-Kdrama (only 8 episodes) that isn't quite like Groundhog Day (even though it's promoted as such). In addition to the repetition of the same day for one character, we get to see the background/history of both him and his girlfriend and understand why he is repeating the same day. It's all bittersweet. Initially, he leaves her behind but begins to realize how much he loves her.

Will my husband ever have any regrets?
What could I have done to stop him from leaving me? If I could go back, then what could I change? I loved him no matter what - with every cruel thing he said or did, I loved him still. Was I that cruel to him? I've been told by friends and family that I had to have done something to push him away. I'm not the nicest, or talented, or beautiful of people so I guess there wasn't much that I could do to hold on to his love.  I feel so sorry and regretful and I miss him so.