First Steps of the Journey

This is the most difficult thing I have ever had to do in my life: I have to get the house that I love ready to put on the market and sell it. Then I am going to move far, far away.

I don't have a new job taking me anywhere. I simply can't live here anymore. It isn't healthy for me - nor is it my "safe" place to be. Since I've been back, I've experienced one full-blown migraine and two full-blown panic attacks. Memories assail me from every angle. I am simply on sensory overload. How am I coping with this? I am cranking up my Korean music playlist and singing along - off-key and in the worst accent ever! Comical? - I am sure that I would embarrass my children to no end! But that helps me to breathe - and to move forward. When that doesn't work, I break down and cry - and pray. I WILL get through this - I MUST move forward. 

Tasks? Ah, you should see me! I am going to re-place the kitchen faucet, take down the bathroom wallpaper and paint, build some porch steps, plant flowers, re-arrange the attic, pack boxes, and clean! I have confidence that I can do what needs to be done - it's just a matter of determination.

Now, if I could just move a little faster, Lord?