Saturday, February 27, 2016

Saturdays

Today is a beautifully brilliant bright day. I enjoy warmth - it's a bit chilly at 54 degrees - but this is winter and I could be in a much colder place at this time.

My tasks for the day include: cleaning the kitchen, grading papers, taking care of the dog, and general straightening. I will intersperse this with reading, prayer, relaxing, and either enjoying a K-drama/movie or K-pop.

This is a time of healing. Surviving - the best that I can.

Since my new meds, I can report that I can breathe more easily (I don't feel as though there are bricks weighing down my chest), the panic meds seem to be more effective, and I've noticed that when I work against my tachycardia meds, a migraine ensues. Which means: I feel more normal. The depression never truly leaves but I am not so immersed that I can't function - nor recognize my blessings. Yes, I fear going out and about on my own - but that is an "introvert" thing. I could do it if I absolutely had to do so.

My word for the day: gidaryeo. (Wait (for me)). Learning how to be patient and to wait. Eventually, the house will sell, I will move out of the apartment, I will move forward.

However, this is my song:


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