Coffee (and oxygen?)

Friday morning, up early (went to bed early) and I wake up because I am desperately searching for coffee and oxygen (?) in my dream. My dreams are usually pretty vivid - one reason I guess that they can easily turn into nightmares - and I usually remember them quite well.

Focus on this one: preparations for a "family" vacation. Unknown destination - don't know what to pack. Arrival: suddenly in a boat being towed and at a lakeside campsite. Who am I with? Him. And the kids. (Kids? In real life they are all grown up - in my dream they are young (not little) but young - and all three are there). They are going to charge us more for our stay if we go swimming - I respond that this isn't a "swimming" vacation. He speaks up and says - I brought my swimsuit - I'm going swimming. There is another couple/family with us (I'm not sure who they are).  I remember asking why he didn't share that information - feeling shocked and betrayed.

Next thing I know - I'm walking along a path - searching for both coffee and oxygen. With scary blue birds (large yellow bills) up in the trees. Wake up. Guess I couldn't breathe very well last night.

Now, coffee in hand, calming down. Planning my day.

Is this all because he has been here, off and on, this week - repairing the stairs? Or because our 34th Wedding Anniversary is tomorrow? Or because I am working in this house - and finding things that remind me?

Doesn't matter. Making a hair appointment, going to the bank, heading towards adoration (but not till VBS has ended). Survival - cranking up my music. Sipping my coffee. Breathe.


My favorite group (JYJ) singing a song for their fans: "The boy's letter". Recommended by JaeJoong when fans are feeling depressed: