Wow! Life is finally getting back on track. I have been in the dark valley for so long that it is nice to be coming back out into the sunlight! It feels as though I have a future to look forward to and plans to make.
Things I accomplished today:
I had an incredible Math class with my online students. They are so eager to learn and happy when they understand - and thankful! They think that I am the "best" math teacher ever! And, it isn't just with that one class - I have seven more classes that I am just as thankful to be teaching. I didn't think that I ever wanted to teach again after that last year in school when I was so bullied by the administration and was suffering through so much stress both personally and professionally that I had to take a medical leave of absence. Now, I am re-discovering the joy that I always had in working with "my" students.
Three wonderful friends, who are as dear to me as my own family, came over and helped me take care of things in the house, yard, garage, and driveway so that I could start preparing, once again, to get this house on the market. It was halted due to the garage fire and SO many things had to be stored back in the house and on the back porch! Now, it is manageable once again and I can look forward to getting this house signed with the realtor by this weekend.
At the end of last week, I was able to return to designing and making rosaries. I completed one in time to send it to an event for my daughter. She texted me this evening to let me know a description of the person who had "won" my rosary. My hands no longer hurt to the point of being unable to work on this craft. Wonderful news!
I think that I have found my house and my neighborhood in the community that I want to move to after I sell this house. My big brother is going to check them out for me. It is great to be able to visualize myself in a new place!
In addition, I have been able to return to my old familiar schedule at Mass - even attending adult education! My church family is rallying around me - supporting me, letting me know that they missed me, and even "protecting" me.
This summer, with my husband bringing his overseas girlfriend to town, was an extremely hurtful time for me which God filled with family times for me. He also reminded me that I can do this - I can live without a man in my life because I have all the love that I need through Him and with my children and grandchildren - and the rest of my family and friends.
He even sent, for a short while, a male friend to tell me that I was beautiful. But, sadly, I can no longer even look upon my husband. He doesn't make me fall apart anymore but he killed something deep inside and I cannot bear to be around him. I guess that is part of God's plan in preparing me to move out of my home. I no longer want to be here. Period. Time to move on. Jack, Honey, and I are ready to go.
I have my job to do, trips to plan, children and grandchildren to enjoy, and languages to learn! Life is definitely not over - I am starting anew.
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