know no bounds. I just keep sinking lower and lower and lower. I enter my car at the end of the day and I cry all the way home. Even when the tears aren't flowing, they can be felt behind my eyes - ready to be released at any moment. There is no relief in sight - I turn to our mother Mary every night through the rosary, I cannot focus on the music that I enjoy nor even attempt to watch the shows that I prefer - my brain cannot process anything else. Sleep is not a relief - it brings more sorrows.
Every day is a struggle to survive. Deep breaths - one step forward. Could I just have one day of peace where students will actually be attentive, be on task, and be kind to one another? Why do I even care and keep trying when they show no desire to learn? I have finally hit a point where I don't even understand the subjects that I am trying to teach.....this is so beyond me. One more day - then the weekend - I'm up too late - need to go in early to write and to print off a test.....
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